something odd about me is that i absolutely love working on my site, but whenever i finish updating stuff all of my energy is just drained, no matter how pumped i was beforehand... maybe it's just losing track of time? i'm unsure.
but anyways, school starts september 1st for me T_T i do admit the first two weeks of school are fun, but once i get used to it? boring as all hell most of the time. i think this'll be the year i finally become more open to talking to others. hey, a boy can dream!

local boy suffers from site making burnout, refuses to accept he is suffering from site making burnout
anyways hi guysssss *does a dance .. yesterday i went to nyc and saw dear evan hansen on broadway. it's not an amazing show, it definitely isn't a very great depiction of mental illness, but i still absolutely loved the production. also my sister is EXTREMELY jealous because gaten matarazzo was jared and she absolutely loves stranger things. gotta remember to rub it in her face once i get to talk to her tomorrow :P
but back to what i said at the beginning: i am.. definitely having some trouble wanting to update the site T_T i've been working on a part two to my intro, as well as my first shrine, but... i just haven't felt the motivation to do either. not to mention i just feel like intro part two feels so out of place and messy and *blows up
i wanna update this so bad, but i just. don't know what to do. it's like art block but for neocities. (doesn't help that i'm going through art block at the same time...)

hi, it's been a while!
i'm finally back to working on this site after like a week, partially because of burnout and partially because i visited my grandparents for a few days. i *could* have worked on the site while i was there, but i forgot the charger for my laptop, and the only one they have that works with mine was in the basement, and i was too lazy to want to make the trip, especially if my laptop was only capable of holding a charge for like two hours T_T yes, i probably shouldn't be using it while it's charging all day, but this is my bridge and i'm currently burning it. (does that even make sense? lol)
but anyways, i've been doing okay lately. i'm having one of those weeks where i'm hyperfocused on being more productive and normal but if i forget to do a single thing i'll immediately regress back to my normal state of being the personification of those images of anime characters in super messy rooms :P i'll do admit though, making my bed for once *did* feel nice...

hello if you've found this!
i'm still working on this section, so check back in a few days for a better looking diary ^_^
it's midnight at the moment, so consider this an entry for the day before... but whatever. i'm finally working on this site again, and i'm happy i am! i didn't really have a good june, but july's been going alright so far. it's about time i started to work on this again, hehe,,
lately i've gotten really into the SAW movies. do you guys like them? i used to think i was absolutely terrified of horror movies, especially one as gorey as an installment from that franchise, but i've been having a lot of fun! it's also been helping me get into horror media in general~